Here I am once again... drifting through thoughts and feelings of confusion, sadness, solitude and passion. Drifting through conflicting concepts of love. Drifting through my own selfish, although altruistic self.

The time to go back to my real life is near. ...but will it ever be the same? ...I certainly hope not. I certainly hope that the bonds I made here do last forever. ...I certainly hope I am worthy a new life, a new world. And let havoc wreck my destiny, my past. Let a new future unfold before my eyes.

I sworn loyalty to her and to her cause. ...and I hope I don't spoil that again. ...cause I did once.

...I don't want my life any longer. Not the life I knew for the last 8 months. Not the life of uncertainty and waiting I was living. I met something better. I know now that I didn't had to change... that I could be myself all along.

and that there's a time and place for everything.

...What will happen to my former dreams, to my former ideals? ...that I cannot tell. Not now. And I really don't give a damn.

and let there be darkness